Glimpses of happiness
January 30, 2018 § 3 Comments
I have recently returned from Japan after a month of interning in a company and I am in love with the country. I haven’t been this much in love with anything so far except trekking and one big reason why I love trekking is because no one known to me can contact me- absolutely cut-off. This might sound selfish or rude but it is what it is. Similar was with Japan is my guess. Being alone with no one known, no phone calls to answer, nothing to think or worry about, enjoy the work gave me such immense lightness which I cannot explain. I felt light on my feet, mind and emotions and for me that was happiness. This lightness was further taken to new levels by natural hot water springs (onsen). Now that I am back to India, stress is palpable to me. Just landing at India made me feel much heavier. My parents kept saying that I am back to my country but I wasn’t excited about it. Just 1 day after returning and I am back to feeling heavy/stressed as I was feeling before I left for Japan.
This makes me wonder what happiness or being at peace really is. I should be equally or should be much lighter when I am around people I know or people who love me but that is not the case with me. That simply means that they are inducing subconscious stress within me. How can stress lead to peace! Thus being in home country, working for it becomes irrelevant if it induces stress in a person. Working for others becomes pointless if it doesn’t make me feel atleast a little lighter in every way than I was earlier. Almost all notions of happiness are false if it doesn’t lead to lightness of emotions, gait, mind, body etc. There are no rights or wrongs now. There is only stress and no-stress. What adds to stress is wrong and what releases stress is right. Maybe being aware of the presence of stress is conscience in action. Living heavily is the saddest thing one can do to himself/herself. There are people who will think good for you, but they might or might not know what is really beneficial as they haven’t felt otherwise. Fighting for lightness is worth it. That fight is Yog with its conclusion being ultimate lightness and everyone has his/her own fight and fighting style.